It started ever since January this year, but before I begin let me define what my artist's block was like. I was still able to draw and paint, but I lost the joy and motivation. I was just drawing for the sake of fulfilling a promise whether it's for someone/company/fans.
Most of you know that I have left my engineering job in Jan to pursue art as a full-time job, it is worth mentioning that during that time I was really exhausted of completing 2 books while working and needed a little break for myself. I have moved to Canada during that time, so settling took quite the time.
After 2 months of break, I planned to go back to my normal drawing routine but couldn't, I just didn't feel that same fire I had when it comes to drawing. I struggled to find reasons and waited a bit more for the so-called artist's block to fade away but It didn't.
I started worrying a lot, the anxiety was affecting my health and mainly, my sleep. The cycle got worse as I never had enough sleep, no energy to start with, let alone motivation. I was being sucked into a black hole, I knew that If I don't do anything about it, I'll fall into depression and my whole career would fall apart.
I really wanted to know what was the primary reason, was it expectations that were not met? disappointments?
I've always thought that I had a good share of luck when it comes to my Manga career, I was blessed with an online audience that supported me ever since I started.
I tried many things to bring back the motivation again, I taught manga in a classroom, I was invited by ADOBE to live stream in San Francisco, and finally met Mark Crilley there. I enjoyed what I was doing and knew that the reason for my artist's block is not the art.
It could have been me wanting to live, experience more and spend time with family and friends. All I needed was a simple advice, which I want to share with you today, it was "Time Management". If I were able to manage my time properly, I could finish a lot of art and still be able to have fun with family/friends.
It took me a while to get this, I never needed any push to get out of my artist's block, I needed to manage my time and stop over thinking about things I cannot change in my life.
The past months, were pretty tough, but I learned more about myself than any of the years before. I never paused to look at the blessings I have, or the beautiful people around me. I was always skipping these moments, and got immensely devoted to work that led me to this state.
I hope that you won't experience this, or when you do, you'd have someone to be there for you. Keep your head high, never give up on what you want in life, we all live once, but few get to live the life they've dreamed of.